My heart often hurts and I don't always understand why.  I've prayed with unanswered prayers, I cry out and I try and trust.  I have so much still to learn from our journey these last two years.  I'm not sure, this side of Heaven, I will ever understand each intricate detail.  And you know, I am ok with knowing that.   I press on.  I pray i see the course He continues to lay out before me.  I never want to lose focus and I always want to live intentional.  Intentionally for Him.  

God has His best before me.  Not my plan that is only seeing a tiny portion of what I think is best.  He is beyond faithful and He never lets me down.  Amidst the pain, beyond the hurt, I know He brings us through the fire to refine and no matter the amount of time or the amount of sadness that fire may bring, in the end we come out pure.  He sets our feet back in place.  He prepares our next step.  

It has been such a long time since I have followed through with my blogging. I have written out several and deleted, I have a few scripted out in my phone and here I go again. It's as if I have once again listened to those voices around me, "lay this down and move on," but I feel it heavy on my heart to write and it often helps my thoughts and heart as I begin to type words out. I know that our journey is not over, our time is never wasted. God has a plan for His children, even though most of our time is spent carrying loads that are far to heavy for us to bare. Thank you, Father, that You are the Load Lifter and that you stand ready to lift our load when we relinquish it to You and release that grip we so tightly have on our burdens.